Your Intuition Never Lies. Learn To Listen To It And All Will Be Well.

In the past few months I’ve sat with my fear of dying young, experienced miracles, and realigned with my center.

After spending nearly half a year with frayed nerves, and perpetual anxiety, due to the ever changing landscape of our society, something finally had to give. And that something was my body.

I believe it’s only natural to think the worst when given a vague medical diagnoses. When you’re asked to return time and time again for further and further assessments to determine exactly what’s going on beneath the surface. It can be intimidating to feel so uninformed about something as personal as your own body.

But there’s also an invitation in an experience like this that allows us to weed out all the excess – all the distractions and unnecessary thoughts – and focus on listening. Listening to our bodies, our overwhelmed minds, and our intuition. And when we stop long enough to truly listen, the response is not all that surprising:

Slow down. Simplify. Be present.

Trust that all will be well.

Intuition Said: Slow Down

Six weeks ago, a CT scan found multiple cysts throughout my body, one possible tumor on my right kidney, and an umbilical hernia. Overwhelmed by the implications of all this new information, I retreated into my inner space to process everything.

While in that stillness I realized just how much I had ignored my intuition. I had been so preoccupied with distracting myself and wishing  for my life to regain some balance, that I had inadvertently exacerbated my feelings of overwhelm.

My body had quite literally manifested conditions that forced me to check in and slow down. As soon as I did, I felt physical relief. No longer did my nervous system buzz with fear and anxiety about things I could not control.

Instead I focused on helping my body process and accept this message from within. I chose stillness instead of distraction and miraculous things occurred as a result.

Intuition Said: Simplify

Feeling a need to pour my attention into the areas of my life that would benefit me most, I made some shifts in my daily routines: Social media was taken off my phone, extraneous tasks were ignored indefinitely, and doing one task at a time became my MO. I sought support in the friends and family who could provide me the positive energy I was craving, I picked up books (real paper books) that I’d been meaning to read for ages, and my meditation practice went from 3-5 days a week to 2-3 times a day.

Over the course of a few months, I began accessing my intuition more quickly, returning to myself and discovered that contentment was found in the most basic of tasks. As a friend and I had been discussing over texting conversations, simplicity just might be the true place of joy we are all seeking. She wrote,

It’s a strange feeling to get through the day and feel peaceful and not entangled in a million different stories that I can do nothing about, and even stranger is a thought that what if that’s the secrete to happy life – moment by moment day by day living these hours that feel peaceful rather than this constant state of feeling ruffled by the world, the choices of strangers, etc.?

What if we don’t need to invite more into our lives to discover happiness? What if stripping down the input, the output, and the field of interaction, soften the edges of our frazzled minds and hearts, and allows us to return to ourselves? Would it be worth it? Could we do it?

Intuition Said: Be Present

Through the process of slowing down, I came to a place where I felt a need to purge mental and emotional clutter. Ironically it also inspired me to become something of a plant-lady, filling my house with more plants than I’ve ever owned at one time. I misted them, talked to them, wiped down their leaves and fronds. We become ‘acquainted’ with one another. Trust me… more plants and slowing down go well together.

As I took cues from my intuition and slowed way down, I began to notice the clutter that was not just causing a mess (internally and externally) but depleting energy and attention that could be put towards healing and appreciating what I had.

Decluttering took on a spiritual tone as I purged physical belongings along with long-held emotional baggage that took up more bandwidth than I felt I had to spare.

Life, in every way, slowed down and simplified to the essence of maintaining mental and physical wellbeing – for myself and my immediate loved ones. To be honest, it had been a long time since I’d felt that sort of clarity and it was a reminder of my forgotten ability to be in the here and now, as I was in childhood in the throes of play.

Intuition Said: Trust That All Will Be Well

It’s not my default to think the best possible outcomes are realistic. I’m always waiting for the other foot to drop (ahem… some of that mental baggage I am working to declutter). It’s easy for me to fall prey to the victim role of being put upon or out of control of my situation.

When I stripped away the external noise – when I made space for my intuition to be heard – I remembered the importance of being here right now, without worrying about what’s happening over there, or what might happen tomorrow. In that place, I found a deep knowing. A hope that was born from trusting that all will be well, and not a hope that was forced or that demanded certain outcomes.

I went into my final exam trusting that all would be well. I had done the work to tune into my intuition and unpack some of my inner clutter: reaching out for support and trust that no matter my diagnosis, life would play out just as it was intended, and in the best interest of greater humanity.

Sure I was still fearful of what I might hear. Sure I wasn’t 100% convinced I could handle it. But I knew that eventually, I’d come to peace with whatever came about. I had already embarked on that journey and there was no turning back.

I read the results of what they discovered from the countless scans and tests. There was a lot of doctor-speak that I needed translated, and in the end, after feeling like I must have missed something, my doctor said, “Don’t worry. Everything is just fine. YOU are fine.”

The cysts on my right kidney is benign and doesn’t needed surgery. The cyst on my ovary has disappeared all together. My umbilical hernia is minor and can be repaired by surgery, if it becomes painful, but it’s not necessary.

All is well.

Call them miracles or flukes, fate or manifestations. Maybe it was just luck, though I have to admit that I’m no longer under that assumption.

The truth is that stress and anxiety manifest in the body in strange and tangible ways. When we shift our focus to those things that bring us back to ourselves, we don’t just balance out our mental state. We balance out our physical state.

We will continue to feel stress and anxiety throughout life. We may even lose sight of the lessons we learn along the way. But as long as we can remember how to tune into our intuition and listen, we’ll always have a map to return home.

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P.S. This process would not have been so powerful had I not listened to my intuition, urging me to not sit in my fear alone, but to reach out for support. I have no doubt that in doing so my experience was amplified.

Sometimes we think we have to do this life thing on our own. But there is a wealth of support just waiting in the wings for you to call upon. Don’t be afraid to ask for help. It just might be the bravest and most transformational things you’ll ever do.